Friday, April 8, 2016

Sick Days

Yesterday I missed work due to a mental health issue.  Today I got physically sick and threw up my lunch, spelling the end of  my work day during my lunch break.  Thank god it’s Friday.  I’m so over this week.  On the way home I picked up my Mac and then went home where I promptly put on sweatpants and wrapped up in my blankie.  Yes, I am 3 years old when I’m not feeling well.  I know you’re not surprised.  I’ve decided that if I can make it 10 consecutive days at work, I will buy myself a Noodler’s Ahab flex fountain pen and Apache Sunset ink or some other bottle of ink if that one isn’t impressing me that day.  I should be getting my Scribe box soon.  I can’t wait to see what’s in there.  I’m going to try to do an unboxing video with the Jetpens order I expect to arrive tomorrow.  It will depend on how impatient I am when I get to it, how I look and if I feel like talking.  I ordered 2 more Pilot Metropolitans and 6 colors of Diamine ink.  I’m hoping I don’t regret the ink splurge.  I’ve seen reviews where that ink bleeds or is slow to dry.  But I have pens that seem to skip, at least my first Metropolitan seems to more than others.  I wish I had more to write so that I had an excuse to be  using up all this ink to buy more.  I will have 5 Metropolitans so I can pretty much have a rainbow loaded and ready to go at all times.
Last night while I was doing my brain dump to try to get some of the anxiety to go away I realized I don’t really mind my poor handwriting enough to keep practicing it.  I’m not going to get better unless I write like that all the time, and honestly nothing I’m doing during practice is really sticking and carrying over to the daily scribbling.  Maybe my printing would be improved with practice, but the cursive is pretty well locked in unless I’m going to write slow and careful and that’s just not my style. The french ruled paper isn’t very helpful unless I’m paying really close attention to where I’m writing.  It was great when I was doing the practice on Spencerian writing, but after that, it’s been pretty useless.  And it’s very distracting when you’re trying to write and can’t tell which line is the baseline.  So I’m just going to write normally on it, instead of trying to use the lines as they are designed.  Maybe I will come back to the handwriting practice in a few months, as I have done over the course of the last 30 years repeatedly, but this month I think I’m going to get away from daily practice.  I’d rather focus on copying song lyrics or quotes into my notebook without worrying about the perfection of the handwriting.  I just want to enjoy my pens and inks.

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